Be kind rewind

Today we esembled our "be kind rewind" groups. Im very excited to get started on the films! i've always had fun filiming and being in the films. Unfortunately i still feel like im a little lost as i was when i was a newbie last year. I think since last year we wern't so into it, i ddin't really get to know how you really are supposed to do one of those films. This year im the camera man and hopefully i get hang of it and put these newbies to work to get a better movie than the one i did last year. Im competeing with myself and can't wait to take this challenge

Dada project

During the dada project, I had so much fun. At first i thought it was going to be easy, thinking of random things for writing like, la la la or blue, green and blah that it would done quick and easy. Then we had to start thinking of ideas and organizing , i reakized then it was hard. This is because you can;t just think dada is random , and that anything flies becuase thats not it at all. You have to be organized and sorted in a certain way. Of course dada isn't supposed to make sense at first, if it does in the end that because it your perception but dada is labortory and during labotory work things need to be organized. This was hard for our group because we had all these great ideas but we just couldnt seem to get it on its feet. Were so used to having things have a meaning that everything we thought of we shot down because we thought it wouldn't make sense. Finally luke stepped in and you can;t something on its feet if you haven;t tried it. So we tried our ideas and it worked out smoothly. The day of the Dada fest we wer totally prepared, all though some people in our group were nervous we pulled through. I was actually surprised by how well it went. unfortunately the lollipop idead didnt work out becuase the cup of water fell , but now that i look at it maybe it ment to happen , it was dada within itself! (easy way to explain the unexplainable). The lines we came up with were very funny! Some people might of looked at it and thought, " oh wow this could mean that the words we say to eachother don't matter, but it;'s the emotions that come with it and the lollipops symbolize how no matter what the emotion to one person or another it is a treat". Mhm , i just made this up and to me it can be seen this way but in the end i dont really care becuase dada is supposed to be fun no matter the perception

Its just a hat

No, it's not just a hat. Towards the end of the acting session, i heard somone say " It's just a hat". I was thinking no it isn't, well physically yes, but in the emotional setting we put ourselves in it wasn't that general at all. We all had our own meaning to it, when you put yourself in a mindeset that your going to steal a hat from somone you are mad at at the moment (in my case it was my mother) , another story between you and the person comes through the action. It isn't just stealing a hat anymore. You start feeling guitly or angry or sad, because of the emotional backgroung you have your mind putting you in. When i tried the activity my self , it was wierd because i walked in at first like nothing but when i went to pick up the hat somehow my mind made me think i was actually stealing from my mother out of revenge. I even got the sense of the room and what the object was. Then when i started to walk away it started to dissapear slowly but still make me happy becuase "i got revenge" on my mother. I think this activity cracked something in them they didn't  know they had, i would love to do it again!

Stac web?

Today's activity added new things to my "library" ! In STAC, we had to write our names connected to things we loved and from whatever we loved, why we loved it etc. At first it was hard because i started to get the "block buster" syndrome, trying to find the best things to love . Now thinking about it , it makes me laugh because the web is about me so i have no one to impress besides myself ! Anyways, while creating the web, the newbie next to me Grace had things in common with me .We both realized this so we decided to connect what we had in common to each other's webs. After doing that , then Sabrina connected, then Sarah and so on. It was really awesome to see that this web connected us. When you backed away from the wall to see it , it almost looks like a time line or a family tree diagram. When I came home thinking about this I noticed that, even if one person loved video games, some how it was the same as if I loved pasta . We are all connected like a little family!

broken mannequins receipt

Broken Mannequin’s Receipt

Abused tears left home, hating the transition from a girl to a woman. To fast, to stern, overwhelmed.

I didn’t know what was happening. 

Such a little mind destroyed by the reek of sick obscure alcohol. My only hope laid there terrified eyed, paralyzed by the sharp brutal slap of his hand.

Looking ahead, I run, tripping over from shoe laces to heels. Tears wipe off as fast as time went by.

 Now alone in darkness no longer have a sense of sight. I hear honks, whistles of usual nights. Not running anymore but w a l k I n g.

 Shiver to feel as of a lifeless old newspaper article watering the sidewalks.

 I used to run as much as I did hoping.  Now that little one is gone, dead, just the thrown torn, recycled paper.

 I’m the article; you read but never know the real story. The article you tell your sister never to be. The one you feel pity for.

As I get into another driving vehicle of the past, I close my eyes till it’s over, becoming blind in heels, just another reader…

                                                                                    - $4.life

Dance workshop

Omg I love dance! i mean i always have but i enjoy it more . Matt made me come to realization when he told me and the group that if we wanted to go to dancing auditions, taht we needed to have some sort of expierence in ballae . I thought that it didnt matter. I dance hiphop, salsa and belly dancing on my own time and i thought that would be good enough but now  know that is'nt the case. Matt was very enthusiastic about the dances he did. I look up to him for that becuase , dancing can get very hard and sometimes you feel you want give up. In matts case hes always doing his best, so thats what my goal is for this week.

jim boni

Omg jim bonie's workshop these past two wensdays were amazing. At first i went in thinking it was going to be boring becuase I didnt hear to much about him from my friends at first. Then when we began to think of a very emotional times in our life and he put us in the emeotional state before reading something, I was already crying. I never felt something so breathe taking and real. It was very relaxing and joyful for me. So great, that i went home trying to do the same. That didnt trun out so well. I can't wait to do it again this week!